armpits!

Can I be honest? I am in the pits. Not like peach pits. Nope. Not even like a pit in the ground. That sounds relaxing. I'm in the big, old, hairy, stinky armpits of life. And life doesn't believe in deoderant and is sprinting uphill in Georgia at noon in July with me tucked up in its pits. Get the picture?

First my foot rebelled. My arch is being a rude beeotch. I missed a long run. And another. I missed a workout. Every time I laced (and re-laced) my shoes I was filled with dread. Not joy. Not anticipation. Not even a good "holy-nuggs-I-have-a-track-workout" fear. Just dread mixed with empty with a twist of bitter.

I could make it two miles before being forced to stop and drag myself to the elliptical. I made two appointments with my PT. I stood on my incline board. But mostly I wallowed very deep in Lake Sad-Sack.

Then to add insult to injury, my birthday camping weekend ended with a trip to the Yakima ER on the way back to Seattle to deal with an issue that had been worsening every minute all weekend. I don't know you that well ... so I'll just say it involved a scalpel and the parting gift was a bottle of vicodin. Legit ER visit.
break in the pity party: pre-ER there was some good, good fun 
Another three days off the roads. Bringing the number of days since I drew a foot with a sad face in my training journal on July 11th to 9 days without running. I'm (un)reasonably depressed. I wish I could bouy myself start making a comeback plan and stick a bunch of go-get-em quotes all over this post. But efffffff.

The thing is I've put my time in. I've aquajogged myself three times around this globe. My yearbook read "most likely to win the aguajogging olympics". I've had my dreams snatched up and drop kicked in front of my face. And deep down during these three years as I let myself fall back in love with running I wondered if I had anymore 'comeback' in me. Would I have what it takes to drag myself fist over fist back up the damn hill if I fell down it?

Do I have it inside me to grow one more little starfish arm?? But I'm trying to take it one day at a time. Fake it til I make it. My three mile run went up in flames tonight, so I'm riding the eliptigo from Green Lake to West Seattle. And I won't lie, I EFFING don't want to.

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  1. Ugh...injuries SUCK. And birthday's should never end that way. I hope you heal up quickly. You are an insanely gifted and talented runner!

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  2. I believe you have more "comeback" in you! It may take time and a bit of rest, but you will get there!

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  3. Totally have it in you...starfish have 5 arms to grow. You've only used up 3. Good to go!

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  4. Injuries do suck :( Actually, anything that keeps us all from running sucks. Due to a particularly nasty bout of bronchitis, I broke a rib from all the coughing. I haven't ran for 5 weeks and counting. :( I have to say, though reading all the Oiselle team tweets/blog posts and seeing all the awesome Instagram photos keep me motivated and inspired to get back on my feet (hopefully soon!). Sometimes it's hard to find that motivation in ourselves, but I'm grateful for the inspiration and motivation I get from others! Seriously, just the thought of riding an eliptigo in the open fresh air of Seattle puts a smile on my face. Right now, I'm relegated to the gym elliptical (sans arms, boo) and walking (zzzz!). I have no doubt you'll find what you need to "grow that arm," girl!

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  5. Have you tried cupping? A friend of mine who has had nasty PF for a long time says it has really helped hers! Might be worth looking into... or even acupuncture? Dry Needling? When I have injury I throw everything at it and hope something sticks. It makes me feel better that I am being proactive instead of just waiting for it to heal. I also credit bikram yoga to healing some stubborn high ham tendinopathy I had over the winter.

    Don't let this injury drag you down... you gotta stay positive! It will get better!

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  6. I feel ya, I had to take 10 days off running a few weeks back and I'm pretty sure I've run as many miles in the last two months as I used to run in a week. Injuries suck so much but keep your chin up

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  7. Sorry to hear you're in the pits, Sarah! You have a force field of women to help you out of it. I wish there was a way one of us could magically heal your body and not just your soul. My offer to swim or bike with you is always on the table. Or perhaps some aqua jogging in Lake WA with views of Mt. Rainier will be a bit more enjoyable. Head up, sister!

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  8. Give yourself a break,take the pressure off...and know that WHEN you do make your comeback you will feel stronger than ever because of everything that you have overcome and how long you have worked and waited for it. Hugs.

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  9. The mind (and body) can be cruel. It's been a while since I've read Peter Pan, but I seem recall there being power in numbers when it comes to helping a lady regain her [sch]wings. Here's hoping that the positive thinking and well-wishes being pushed West by the thousands of runners (and aspiring runners) you inspire and encourage every day have you lacing and racing in no time.

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  10. arches are the worst and i have called mine rude beootches many a time. i used to get plantar fasc all the time but my PT finally made my orthotics and I haven't had issues in years... but just think of the big picture and dont rush into anything!!

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  11. Sorry to hear you aren't in a good place :( Injuries are the worst and it's hard to stay motivated to do anything, let alone eliptigo and aqua jog when all you want to do is run and you can't. I hope things turn around for you soon!

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  12. Dude, that effing sucks. Hard core sucks. Not going to give you a "get back out there, you can do it!" because I find that to be the worst when I'm down and can't do anything about it. I will say that you seem to truly love running and get it in a way that a lot of people don't or can't. You see the beauty and the ugly that correspond with the love and the hate--basically you get the lifestyle aspect of it. Maybe just ride it out and focus on one foot in front of the other and see what happens without pressure to ramp back up right away.
    That said, hope you heal quickly, head to toe.

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  13. I am going through something similar... different kind of injury, but preventing me from running. I'm so sorry! I can completely empathize

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